Don't try to bring me back! i'm like the time. i don't wait nor go back..
I replay every single moment and revise all the things i could have said, shouldn’t have said, things i wish i had done, hadn’t done, all from a really amazing memory that doesn’t need changing. i've scarcely allowed myself to sit and think about the past and all the great things i've seen and done so as to avoid such overwhelming negative feelings. recently i've really focused on this area of struggle and pushed myself through reflecting and trying to reprogram the way i respond to memories. i think about the memory as though it's not mine, but someone else's. i think about the things they did and the feelings they would have felt. and then i bring the memory back to being my own and try to associate the two. it doesn’t always work, but the more i practice, the more success i have.
Someday you will miss today..
Have courage to let go of what you can't change..
There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds..